I wonder about current events sometimes; I can't seem to decide whether or not to pretend like I give a good goddamn about any of it. Politics are interesting, but discussing them disgusts me. People aren't really interesting, but human tragedies and triumphs are fascinating. Religion is frustrating and wonderful all at the same time, but still confuses me as to why we care about a God who doesn't seem to care about us. I think Alanis Morisette songs are pretty much bullshit -- really convincing bullshit.
I'm beginning to believe that everything is a conspiracy. I am slowly losing faith in humanity and the intelligence we claim to possess. I think maybe having opposable thumbs and the power of verbal communication has really made us lesser creatures. I truly want to believe in the positivity of people and the elevation of society through good.
It just isn't happening.
When did we become too lazy to speak out? What happened to our ability to question...everything? Instead of asking 'Why not?', we ask 'Why?'. I want to build a tree house in the middle of the jungle so I can watch butterflies and urinate through my floorboards. Why? No fucking clue. I just want to. I want to go back to school and become a doctor, a lawyer, an astronaut, a National Geographic photographer, a writer, an architect, and king of the world. Just because I can. I want to be a little bit of everything, all rolled into myself.
I don't want fame or fortune. In fact, I prefer being anonymous and broke. It teaches me to appreciate every meal, every true friend, every bill paid. It gives me dreams, it makes me think. I breathe deeper and see clearer. Loving someone is real. Wanting is needing, and I go after what I need.
Money makes things funny, and not in a good way.
Going back to politics in a round about way, here's a question: why do we pay our idiot, cheating athletes millions of dollars a year while the honest teachers and firemen and mailmen and cops and make shit? We're selling our feet to pay for shoes.